Letter to my son

My Dear Sweet Little Boy,

I remember when your daddy and I were talking about giving your sister a younger brother or sister.  It feels like that conversation took place yesterday.  Honestly I was scared to get pregnant again, but I know I had to try one more time for your daddy.  

We struggled for a while to conceive you, my beautiful boy.  But one day your daddy left to go to the store for something and I took a pregnancy test because I just had a feeling that I was.  Sure enough, within three minutes I got a big fat positive.  I stared at the two lines staring at me and looked at my belly and thought, 'here we go again'.

I couldn't wait to tell your daddy that we were pregnant with you.  I wrapped up the pregnancy test and put it in a box and wrapped it up.  I couldn't wait til he came home to give him his present.  When he opened the box and saw the two lines his first reaction was 'is this what I think it is?'.. and when I told him yes.  We were both excited beyond words can describe.

I quickly scheduled a visit to the doctor to start getting the proper prenatal care.  I found out my due date was only three days after your daddy's birthday.  What a great birthday present!

I admit that I wish you had moved around more when you were in my belly.  When your sister was in my belly, she moved a lot.  I enjoyed that so much that I couldn't wait to get pregnant again to experience that all over again.  Not to mention, the doctor I had didn't give me as many ultrasounds as I had when I was pregnant with your sister.  It made me scared when I couldn't see you or feel you move, but everything worked out well.

We scheduled to get a C-section with you because your sister was home and your grandmother, my mom, was watching her.  We didn't know when you were going to make your debut, so we decided to schedule a C-section.

The night before we were going to go to the hospital, your grandma came over to spend the few nights at our house.  Your daddy and I went to bed after we put your sister to sleep.  But we couldn't sleep.  We were so excited and couldn't wait for you to get here.

We left the hospital at 4:30am because we had to check in the hospital at 5:00am.  Our C-section was scheduled at 7:00am.  During the last week of my pregnancy, I had slight Braxton Hicks but no real contractions.  Wouldn't you know it, once we got to the hospital and the nurses were hooking me up that I started having consistent contractions?  Your daddy and I both thought about letting the birth happen naturally but we opted against it.  The doctor who delivered you was on call that weekend and we didn't want to wait around for you to make your debut and when it was time, that another doctor would deliver you.

But you came into the world and the first time I heard you cry, I cried hysterically and thanked God for you over and over again.  I looked at your daddy and smiled.  I couldn't believe it.  Our family was complete.  We have one of each and we feel so blessed.

You are only a year and a half now and we love you to no end.  We can't wait to see what kind of young man you will turn out to be.  

We love you!

Love, 
Mommy